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This is where you stick random tidbits of information about yourself.
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Thursday, July 31, 2003
too spiritual...boring
2:50 PM
Tuesday, January 08, 2002
I've begun, reintroduced my spiritual practice...
I'm writing for 20 minutes to God, to my spirit
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm, it's 6:22 am and tonight
I have a date with a man I haven't met in person, but
have spoken to on the phone and thru emails...
I am VERY attracted to him thus far...
I do not want to be, stay in a fantasy wishing for things
that I don't know if they could possibly be until I at least meet
him in person...
I have spoke to God, asked him for what I would like to have happen
not all in one night, but you know God, soon, this guy would be nice
I hate dating, but I must say I have learned a great deal so far just talking
to this fellow of 4 years younger age then myself (which is always a turnon
in itself)...
There are things about him that would make me think this could work
and other things that make me think it couldn't
Long term?
Short term?
Just sex?
Love and sex?
thinking thinking thinking thinking
too much thinking
that's why I turn to God
to keep me serene no matter what happens
However I am very excited and I am hoping for the best
result better then I can even imagine...
that's unusual for me, because I am a big skeptic
VERY cynical entity
I will look HOT, gorgeous for me,
I will do my best to maintain who I am
lighten up, when necessary,
be serious when I need to be as well
I choose to constantly check within and try
my best to not overreact and "go to far to fast"
of course if there is no chemistry in person
(which wouldn't be the first time) then the answer
will be clear...I will have a nice night of it and leave
shortly after...just coffee...that's it...
maybe be sad, or bummed, but ultiimately will
have learned something new...of course I want more
then that, I want the whole kit and caboodle (where the
hell did that term come from) and I am admitting it out
loud, but if it is not the time yet, if this is not the person
for that great collaboration I truly long for, I trust (not always
happily) my higher power, my spirit to take care of me tonight
as he/she always has with all my relationships and dates thus far.
I only hope that tomorrow morning when I write that I can be this
grateful, open and accepting of whatever happens tonight...
stay tuned and God thank you...
(A new blog will be coming called LOVE BOAT)
Amen
3:33 AM
Thursday, January 03, 2002
where is the next batch of money coming from?
date friday night - a nice distraction
it's been a long long time since I've had physical contact
with a male - you know the male species
there's chemistry on the phone, will there be chemistry in person
or will there be nothing but boredom, disappointment and bad breath?
lordy lordy I'm over forty
so what
really
at least I have a day or two of looking forward to meeting a man
thoughts racing through my head
feelings throughout my body
new cat in the home
seeing my vet whom I'm in love with tonight
we need distractions from reality don't we
I've been told God is in charge
so I don't have to worry so much
let go let God
o.k. I will
something I don't do too well
but a male distraction certainly helps.
have a nice day
5:09 AM
Monday, December 31, 2001
looking for a job
just had first cup of java
what am I going to do?
what does HP have in store
taking actions letting go of the results
la dee da dee da
not worried today
that's a good thing
3 cats in the house
I said I have 3 cats in the house
can't I just stay home and play with them?
6:02 AM
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